Its been a while since I’ve last been in touch with you all so thought I’d send out a note. I’ve been quite busy these last few months dealing with an unexpected physical transition. Over the past year, my previous landlord’s health took a steep decline, which necessitated that he use my suite for his caretaker. This also meant that I needed to move again. Not a fun place to be as a renter on a small island with a major housing shortage! In the past I’ve had to move to another island because I couldn’t find housing, so the news was initially quite daunting.
Although the transition offered some challenges, as grace would have it I was able to find an incredible place that more than fits my needs on a large farm here on Pender Island (actually it sort of found me :). Each day I count my blessings that I’m able to live surrounded by such spaciousness, quiet, and an abundance of Nature’s beauty on my doorstep. I’m abit of a sun worshipper, so feel doubly blessed to be living in one of the few open vistas on this island, and having my own garden again is a sweet bonus.
For those of you that didn’t know, I grew up on a farm in Alberta, Canada. Moving ‘back to a farm’ has reconnected me to my roots, so to speak, and reminded me of how much better I function when I’m living in such spacious surroundings. I feel like something very deep and primordial comes alive in me when I’m in such conditions, which I had almost forgotten about. Being here has a quality of being physically ‘home’ for me that I haven’t felt to this degree for a long time. There seems to be something special about living in surroundings similar to those that we lived in during our childhood years.
The last time I’ve lived in similar conditions was when I lived in a cottage by a lake in Alberta, which I moved to just before a massive spiritual shift back in 2008. This move has also reminded me of how I experienced and related to that initial ‘bliss phase’ of the Awakening process, and how things have evolved and deepened for me since then. Like many people who have profound awakening experiences, my attention was almost exclusively focused on experiencing the dramatic, intense, and seemingly endless levels of bliss and freedom, and how everything else in life paled in comparison to this Awake Joy and Loving Presence. It was like being high all the time, and all that I wanted to do was be in that Space with others.
Although this still remains, like many other people who’ve experienced profound spiritual awakenings, my experience gradually shifted more towards seeing True Nature in all experiences and situations, and towards including and healing everything within me that hadn’t yet recognized this reality. Rather than always looking for more bliss or the next mind blowing experience, I began to recognize another dimension coming online that seemed more related to dissolving any recognizable reference point. In retrospect, it seemed to be more interested in having and being ‘less’ rather than having or being ‘more’.
When our awakening journey first begins, I feel we have no idea of how much can actually be let go of, or how much can be taken away from us. Initially we also have no idea of how deep and subtle our conditioned patterns actually go, or of how out of ‘control’ one can actually become. This deepening and embodiment process more clearly reveals our existential holdings related to both our deepest wounds and traumas, as well as to our deepest existential graspings and fixations onto any experience or perspective. Eventually this even includes the experience and beingness of Consciousness itself.
The landscape of this deepening terrain is more about the dissolution of all identification, and the letting go of anything and everything that both resists and tries to hold onto Love, and onto existing at all. Life becomes an endless unfoldment of the Divine Source attempting to express Itself in and through us, and to relate to Itself in and through others, in a cleaner and clearer way. Our evolving edge constantly deepens and widens, and our relaxation into living in the Unknown becomes more effortless and easeful. We learn to be just as unattached and open to heavenly experiences as we are to hellish experiences, and we learn to function without having any recognizable life orientation principle to guide us.
We recognize more deeply how much we both simultaneously exist and don’t exist, and how we are human just as much as we are Divine. In a sense, everything has a quality of being true and untrue at the same time, and a mind bending level of paradox is the only thing that seems to have any ‘life’ left in it anymore. The more self-centered desire to be and become enlightened, or even to be free of suffering gives way to a growing importance of actualizing the potentials that now come online when this simpler and more fundamental recognition takes root in us.
My Own Evolving Edge
To give you a window into some of my own evolving edges, somewhat to my surprise I’ve recently become more interested in how spiritual medicines can be helpful for some people. More and more people I work with are sharing their positive experiences, and more and more scientific evidence is showing the positive effects of psychedelics on a whole range of human conditions. The use of spiritual medicines wasn’t a major part of my own path, but their more widespread, accepted, and legalized use (or their microdosing), combined with a growing number of scientific studies have made me reassess my own ideas regarding their usefulness as a meditative aid and in spiritual awakening, in the healing of emotional trauma, and in our overall mind-body health.
I’ve seen how profoundly positive people some people have been effected by their use, and I’ve also seen how much people have been shamed and judged for their use within certain spiritual circles. It breaks my heart every time I hear how someone was told that their medicinally induced spiritual or awakening experiences ‘don’t count’, or how they’ve been looked down upon because of their use. From my perspective, there is only one Non-Dual Being that we awaken to, regardless of how we come to recognize it, be it through spiritual medicines, trauma, sexuality, meditation, or any other spiritual practice one engages in.
I’ve repeatedly seen the power of simply honoring and meeting people in all of their spiritually awakening experiences, as well as their emotionally traumatic experiences, without judgement or pretense. One of the functions that I often serve is to help people normalize their awakening and traumatic experiences, and to help clarify what aspects of these overwhelming experiences are important in the context of Non-dual awakening. So many of our profound experiences remain unintegrated and unprocessed until someone who truly understands offers the clarity and compassion to ground it. That being said, I also believe that the spiritual medicine exploration also needs to be balanced with an understanding of its pitfalls, dangers, and limitations, but that is a different conversation.
Recently I’ve also become more interested in exploring the usefulness of technologies like brain hemisphere synchronization, biurnal beats, and frequency based modalities (eg. Solfeggio & Schumann frequencies) to support the process of healing and awakening. I feel that its so useful to acknowledge and support people’s natural inclinations, and I try my best to help people find spiritual practices that really resonate with their own unique make up. There’s many paths, practices, and modalities which support both spiritual awakening and emotional healing, and I feel what’s most important is finding the ones which deeply resonate with each person, as this interest is what motivates each person to continue engaging and deepening in the practice in an ongoing way. One of the consequences of there being such easy access and availability to a myriad of teachings and practices is that people tend to know alot, but don’t take things very deep. The ancient wisdom to dig one hole 100 feet deep (spiritually speaking) as opposed to 100 holes 1 foot deep has never been so relevant as it is today.
Health Coaching & Teacher Support
On the health coaching front, I’ve also recently taken some fascinating trainings on the gut microbiome, and on the healing benefits of medical cannabis. I’ve been discovering how important both of these things are in relationship to things like chronic health conditions, mental health symptoms, our immunity, our reaction to stress, and our overall experience of well-being. The study of the microbiome really seems like it will completely revolutionize our ideas of healthcare in the next few years. The widespread legalization of cannabis (and the recent legalization of Psilocybin mushrooms in Denver) as well as a growing interest in scientifically studying their effects will only deepen the exploration of their usefulness. I’ve included a number of informative videos below that discuss some of the topics that I’ve mentioned here.
For those of you interested in putting yourself out there as a teacher or including Presence in your practice or modality, I’m also now offering teacher/facilitator support and mentorship. Everything that arises in this work is welcome, including addressing the unique issues and challenges related to teaching, facilitating, counselling, coaching, and relating within the context of Non-dual Presence.
If working with this or any other life issue interests you and you’d like to move forward, it would be my joy to support you moving toward healing and awakening in any way that I can, and to help midwife and birth your unique expression of True Nature into the world.
I’d be more than happy to share my own varied personal experiences in this regard, spanning over 10 years of offering satsang retreats and individual sessions, more than 5 years working as a family counsellor, and over 15 years working as a massage therapist and energy worker. I’d love to explore this possibility with you, as well as anything else that you’d like to work and focus on in a free 30 min Discovery session.
What is your Evolving Edge?
So right now, where is your own evolving edge? What is the next step in your Journey? Is it beginning to experience and becoming more familiar with your True Nature? Healing more deeply from a past wound, trauma or conditioned pattern? Integrating and embodying your deepest spiritual realizations into your every day life and relationships? Challenges related to putting yourself out there as a facilitator and expressing your Divine gifts or your Life Purpose into the world?
Or is it working though some limiting or negative core beliefs? Dealing with a major health challenge, grieving a loss, or dealing with relationship issues? Navigating through some challenging life transitions, some overwhelming changes, or even a lack of clarity or direction? Or is it dealing with challenges related to being a highly sensitive person, empath, healer, or psychic, or issues related to kundalini energy?
What areas of your life could use some more loving acceptance, compassionate understanding, or passionate aliveness? What in your life could use some more clarity, perspective, or the space to talk it through with someone in Presence? What areas of your life could use some more inspiration, creative passion, or a deeper sense of connection? What areas could use some encouragement, nurturing, acknowledgement, or recognition? And what is it that stops you from saying yes and reaching out for some support?
Whatever your evolving edge is right now, I’d love to help and support you in any every way that I can. Supporting people through individual session work is my focus and joy these days, and if this interests you, I would love to make it a reality for you. I’m continuing to offer your first session of this year at a reduced rate of $30-60 for a 60 min session, or $45-90 for a 90 min session (in CAN funds). I’m also offering discounted session packages, which includes discounts on my online courses. For those of you who need it, partial scholarships and payment plans are also available. Just drop me an email for details and let’s find a way to make things work.
To book a private session or your free 30 min Discovery session, just send me an email, or you can book directly into my online scheduler at the link in the section below. My schedule is somewhat limited at the moment, so if my available times don’t work for you, let me know and we can try to find another time. I’d love to hear from you and connect, and see what’s going on for you right now. I don’t always know where our exploration will go, but based on the feedback that I regularly receive, I can assure you that it definitely will go somewhere alive and real, and that you won’t be disappointed. See the section below for more details.
Community Survey & Free Gift
Lastly, I’d really appreciate it if you could take a few minutes to share your feedback with me in a short online survey that I’ve created. I’m planning to offer some new online programs in the near future, and would love to hear your feedback, ideas, and suggestions to help me create offerings that would better help and support your unique needs. It should only take 5-10 min of your time, and as my gift to you for your time and energy, I’m offering the first week of my online course Self Love: A Path to Awakening, Healing, and Embodiment. Besides being an overview of the spiritual Awakening process, I also included practices in this course to support people who’ve experienced trauma as well as for empaths/HSPs. Please note that the survey is done anonymously. To access the survey and your free resources, please visit the Community Survey page on my website.
I hope that you’re all enjoying your summer, and look forward to connecting with you sometime soon. As always, please feel free to share this email, and I’d appreciate if you could share about my offerings on social media. Most people hear about me through word of mouth, so your help is greatly appreciated!
With Love and Blessings